Zero, ziltch, nada,.. OUCH! I had to be prepared for days like this to come. Days when you know that yesterday you were less than perfect, and I was. Still on WFPB diet, 100%, still eating nothing that wasn’t almost raw except a massive lot of mashies in the evening. I ate all day yesterday! Yikes? What HAVE I done? Well, if I’m gong to maintain positivity then I need to say one word, “Good!”. Yeah, that’s the word, Good!
Good! I’ve created an opportunity to do better. Good! I can test the plan by being rigid and seeing what the scale has to say to me tomorrow. Good! Good! Good!
How do you manage stress? In all honesty, I used to drink. Not like the alky kinda drinking where getting drunk is he key, but a cocktail in the evening before bed kinda drinking telling myself, “This is relaxing”. BS! That’s right, Bull Shit! It was a tiny escape, a little bit of, “I’ve earned this drink by being a good worker bee all day and taking care of business. Now all the business is handled, I can chill with a whiskey and watch a video or two” kind of drink. Responsibility first, relaxation second kind of thing. It’s how I deal with most things, responsibility first relaxation second. Anyone that spends time with me knows this about me, work first play second. Is this the best possible way to handle life in general? Does it add to my stress level without provocation? Yes! Yes it does. And when I have things outstanding in my life, things that need to get done IMHO, it adds a TON of stress! And right now, there’s no outlet! No evening drink, no exercise, just focus on being able to keep eating WFPB.
Our bodies are bags of hormones. Insulin, Testosterone, Estrogen, Thyroid,.. and Cortisol! Cortisol, the stress hormone! Excessive release tells your body its time to fight, things are bad, hold on to what you’ve got and hunker down for a battle. I had some unfinished business of booking a very expensive flight yesterday that I’d been putting off until I had all the cash saved, but I had to book it. I used a credit card, and I HATE doing that! Now, there’s a rush to pay it off. Stressful, in my world anyway. Cortisol! That little fucker! If I had to place some level of blame on today’s zero, that would be it! Given the current orders of no liquor and no exercise, what to do? I don’t think Claire could handle that mush sex, it’s nearly impossible to fuck the crazy outta me. I can’t afford to be at the gun range daily,… so now what? Fuck it, that’s what! Two wheels are calling and it’s time to answer.
Time to venture out on the bike! That was always my best stress relief. A decent bike ride, out in nature enjoying the scenery of the desert is where I should be anyway. So I’m setting up the bike this evening to spend some time on it tomorrow morning. Every ride is like a mini vacation, a few hours away from the stress of things to be done. And I miss it! Terribly! So tomorrow, I’m going for a ride.
I’ll stay with the fast this AM, no potatoes until after noon. Tea for now.
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